Flake.

Lately I have been feeling such diverse emotions. On one hand, I feel so blessed and happy. On the other hand, I feel discouraged, anger, and sadness. I am constantly struggling with my emotions trying to remain in a cheerful spirit, but it is definatly a battle right now. For starters, I am disgusted by people's ability to be so cruel. In the past few weeks I have witnessed people who I once saw as loving and selfless become monsters. It is amazing how a few hurt feelings cause such a wreckage among relationships. And then you have to question the relationship, if it was really as strong as you thought, how can you treat someone you once cared so much for, so terrible? I often think, that if people really thought about what they were doing, that maybe they would see the other side....but my mom always told me..."People's perceptions are their reality...". That is so true. If you would just stop and take a minute to truly think about the big picture...we would see that there is not ONE person at fault...there is not ONE person in the wrong....this is where I become angered...I do not understand how people who claim to be followers of Jesus can do such un-Christ-like things....Rob Bell said, "How you treat the CREATION reflects how you feel about the CREATOR"....so by treating people so terrible, you are ultimately showing God how you feel about him. Because God created us, he made us beautiful in his eyes, and he made us with a purpose...we are SOOOO valuable because his son died for US...so when you treat one of GOD's creations wrong, you are ultimately saying to him that you do not value him. and then I feel sadness. I feel for the hurt feelings and the tears shed over situations that were so crappy. I feel sadness that Life for the people involved is different. I feel sadness that those relationships can never be repaired, and yet there is positiveness in that...because God will use this experience......
On a completely different note, there is something magical about the season of Christmas, I think it is the idea that there is hope for the hopeless. People at this time of year can be so generous. Yesterday Green Goodies used all of the proceeds from yesterday to go towards the two families we have adopted for Christmas. Yesterday was also my 21st birthday, and I can honestly say that I received more joy from each customer who entered the door of Green Goodies than any gift I received yesterday. If I could constantly pursue my passion in life...this is what it would be... I love giving people hope. I may not always be so good at expressing my emotions verbally, but hand me a pen, and I can write you some serious words of encouragement. I find such fulfillment in knowing that I can touch some one's life for the better, and If I did not have to work for a living I would love to spend my days in a non-profit organization volunteering and interacting with people who have lost hope. I mean this is really my heart. I always feel such an urge to get out and help.
Basically this blog was a rant of my current feelings, but I hope that in some way it opens your eyes about the way you are treating people----because I feel that is something people need to remember even in situations of hurt.